Over the top

A friend told me tonight that I tend to go over the top with some things since my husband has been diagnosed.  Actually she didn't add the "since your husband has been diagnosed" since she has only known me during that time.  But yes, I have changed a lot since his diagnosis.

Why am I writing this post?  I want my friends to know that I don't mean to go crazy by eliminating all plastic from our lives, growing my own food to prevent chemicals from being part of our diet, and being so careful about what my family eats.  I'm doing it because I feel helpless to do anything else.  I can't perform a miracle to save my husband's life, this is the only thing I can do.  I can control what goes into his body to try to keep him as healthy as possible.  I can stop the chemicals in plastic from leaching into our food by storing it all in glass.  I can prevent chemicals and antibiotics and who knows what else from entering our bodies by growing and cooking everything myself and buying only from local farmers that I know well.  Am I being extreme?  Maybe.  Is my family worth it?  Absolutely.  Do I judge anyone for the choices they make in regards to food, plastic, and things they put in there bodies?  Never.  We all have to do what we think is best for ourselves.  When I say I worry about something or I won't eat a particular something, I'm not trying to preach, judge, or say someone else is wrong to make a different choice.  I need to do this, over the top or not, this is something I need to do.  Even if the only benefit is that I feel like I am doing something to save my husband's life.  I do hope my friends can understand that.